Tuesday, December 30, 2008 |
ya..another step to going near to the truth again..
=.=..
m i ok ma..?
how come i can stil ao stable 1..
maybe..i hav tasted this feeling b4..
ya...just same with 3 years ago..
tat time..i couldn't eat...counldn't slp...couldn't concentrate in everything..
how i passed those days?
i had 4getten..haha..i was dropped into a deep hole..
n i couldn't climb out from the hole too..
these time...wad challenge will i get soon..?
i duno leh.. how come i can stil think til so open..?
m i gonna crazy soon..?
maybe..hahahah..cuz i m sot 1 ma..!!! =.=..(cold~~)
i noe when i fall tat time...no one could hlp me 1 ..
n tat time..u might not going to care me anymore..
upDate bY ~eVaL~ at 5:22 PM
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Friday, December 26, 2008 |
Love
n. (lŭv)
1. a feeling of warm personal attachment or deep attraction
2. unconditional affection with no limit
3. nature's way of tricking people into reproducing
4. to give everything you have without expecting anything in return in the world and make nothing else matter
5. if you find it, don't let it go
i love this explaination..
and i have found someone to love..
but..i not sure wherther my love will be refuse o not..
seems like beside you..stil got another person is waiting for you..
n at the same time..you are falling in love with him too..
i can saw the dialog btw each other was sweet..
i m jealous too..but..i cant do anything ...
cuz..you have too much thing keep and wont let me noe..
so .. i will just wait for the truth to come to me..
upDate bY ~eVaL~ at 7:18 PM
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== Seventeen sign that you like someone. == |
S e v e n t e e n :
You look at their profiles constantly.
S i x t e e n :
When you're on the phone/text with them late at night and they hang up/stop replying, you still miss them even when it was just two minutes ago.
F i f t e e n :
You read their texts and IMs over and over again.
T h i r t e e n :
You walk really slow when you're with them.
T w e l v e :
You feel shy feel great whenever they're around.
E l e v e n :
When you think about them, your heart beats faster but slower at the same time.
T e n :
You smile when you hear their voice.
N i n e :
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you; you just see him/her.
E i g h t :
You start listening to slow songs while thinking about them.
S e v e n :
They're all you think about.
S i x :
You get high just from their scent.
F i v e :
You realize you're always smiling when you're looking at them.
F o u r :
You would do anything for them, just to see them.
T h r e e :
While reading this, there was one person on your mind this whole time.
T w o :
You were so busy thinking about that person, you didn't notice number fourteen was missing.
One:
You just scrolled up to check & you are now silently laughing at your self.
upDate bY ~eVaL~ at 7:14 PM
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haha..
finally i know tat..
all are just mirror..
i m hard to believe you now..
really..
first ..sec...third...
you are stil the same..
i m the person tat always kacau you onie..
for you..i might just lik "xxxxx" no.2 only..
i told you oready..
anything you can just straight tell me..
don let other ppl think they stil got hope..
today..
i totally can understand who are you oready..
i met the diff of you..
i m just a tool for you only..
you don ever put me in ur eyes..
you hav another to accompany you..
you will don care the other..
tats wad i can see..
today...i hav get a great Xmas gift..
u noe wad i get..?i big shock and suprise..
hahaha..so good..n so nice..
and wad you get?
so much thing from others..
i noe u don ever care me 1 la..
i can see so..in your eyes just got another 1 only..
u can ignore the ppl around n just to achieve wad you want..
i dunno wad should i say la...
feeel so sad now..
you will don even noe wad m i sad for..
cuz..you don even care me..
upDate bY ~eVaL~ at 2:33 AM
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Saturday, December 20, 2008 |
period passed..
text missing..
upDate bY ~eVaL~ at 11:53 PM
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Sunday, December 14, 2008 |
ya..today..
as a usual sunday..
i go to work at my dad shop...
doing these n that..
somehow i will feel very upset and angry..
angry is becuz...sometimes when we need workers to do something..
they couldn't help..something need to do first..but not doing..
i don dare to scold any1..cuz i might not qualify to do so..
i m upset is becuz my uncle..
how come everyone are busy for everything..
u could sitting there to eat..drink n tok to the another..
as my parent and sister say..i must respect him becuz he is elder than us..
but ..not tat point okie.? i m toking the thing he do but not criticize him..
anyways..all of us hav no feeling to u oready..
so..do wadever you wan..do wadever you lik..
u are really the "boss" of the restaurant..
when i going back home..i tot got a chance to hang out with some1..
but..haha..din go out also....no choice la..>.<..it is in my prediction also lo..
then back to home....
i hav nothing to do....
at last..my fren asked me to go to pc fair..
good..i tot i hav no chance to going to there also..
so i change my clothes then wait for my fren to fetch me..
when i reaching there..hm..stil the same tat i went to there past 2 years..
same way and same place..actually my purpose to going there is just wan to buy a thing..
buying a mouse..for some1..
ya..actually some1 bday is coming..i hope i can buy something that some1 lik and gif her as a birthday present..
i ask n ask..just trying to found wad which kind of mouse is suitable..
but i feel i m very irritate for some1..
sry for disturbing today..u wont noe why i m keep on asking u tat..
n i din told u tat i hav bought a mouse..
just hope that i can giv u a suprise when u bday..O_O..
but hope u wont buy any mouse b4 ur bday also la...=.=..
nowdays feel lik i m ...losted..
my heart lik flying far away from my body..
even my soul...are gone to somewhere also..
i noe hav changed in these few months..
i can feel it..but..duno y..i feel i....
duno how to say ..aiz...
duno the changing is good or bad for me..
but i noe i m losting something oready..
sry for everyone tat caring me..
i have some task to complete ...so..giv me sometime..
i will find back myself and join back to u all..
really..i just hope i wont regret for wad i m doing now..
even i noe something is impossible..
at least..let me try my best to finish it..
tat is wad i wish...bless me...
upDate bY ~eVaL~ at 9:37 PM
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Saturday, December 13, 2008 |
== eval is here again.. == |
haiya..i m here again lo..
hm..
finally i finish all the exam oready..
but not consider all la..
just the mojor course in my department onie..
stil left another subject ...moral education..
haiz..sommore nid to do theory type assignment..!!arrr..
how good if i no need to take such subject..
between..
do u think taking moral education will brings a person become moral..?
I don think so!!
just lik last time i going to tuition..
actually i'm not willing to attend 1..
cuz i duno go tuition for wad..
tat time i was stil small..
duno study hard for wad..
in high skool..
i was waked...i realize tat study is very important in my life..
then so far i consider as willing to study lo..XD..
n willing to go for tuition as revision...
when i willing to do something..i will really learned something..
haha..wad m i toking about..=.=..
hope that exam faster over lo..friday..!!!
i wan to finish it faster and go out le...
aiz..btw..i think after Xmas i will hav alot of task to complete d..
webpages, documentation of MBYS, so much thing...=.=..
die lo..haha..sommore got training after some1 bday..
hm..duno la..
hope to be free..but when u are free..u will feel to do something..
funny rite..?tat is the way of being a human..haha...
hmmm...actually hope to go out with some1 also la..
but..i think will getting less n less time d..
something is needed to say but stil not the right time yet..
i afraid that..after i tell some1 tat thing..we will having a wall btw us after tat..
so..wad can i do.?keep..?or say..?duno..
but for sure i will find a chance to told some1 about the thing...
perhaps..i will not so care about this thing...
feel to escape from it..but..i think is hard for me to do so..
so...good luck again..eval..=.=
upDate bY ~eVaL~ at 4:56 PM
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Saturday, December 6, 2008 |
== eval back again...=.=how many times i back..? == |
erm..
actually nxt few days is my final exam d..=.=..
how come i stil so free to write my blog here..
omg lo...wan die meh..
aiz..actually i feel quite stress lo..
btw..very sry to some1 la.cuz i keep on making some1 no mood..
aiz..say sry is meaningless for some1 from me..
but happy to hear from u la..really..
finally get back my mood d...
u noe..when i feel stress or no having good mood..i really cant concentrate on doing anythign 1..
aiz..so just try some ways to get it back lo..
thanks for scolding me too wor..
cuz i really wake d...=.=...
the exam for me stil feel lik bloody hard..
even is open book i also scare lik hell now..
should be hard i think..=.=..
duno i can score for my subject o not..
i don wan to drop down my average leh.
aiz..i admit i not study very hard in this semester...
cuz of some external factors....
but..it is just an excuse la..
to do or not to do..
can decide by my ownself..
no body can force me to do anything 1..unless i'm willing to do..
so..no more excuse d...
aiz..so..eval..pls concentrate on ur study or u really wan to die after few days..
good luck for myself again..
upDate bY ~eVaL~ at 12:37 PM
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